Written on: October 29, 2011
…I’ll have to move on. Everything was perfect except for one thing, and it was this one thing that determined that things will never work out. No matter how hard I try to convince myself to just put more effort into it; no matter how much I tell myself that there is still hope and that it will get better; I know that it would never work out and convincing myself otherwise would just be lying to myself. It is that cruel. Basically, I’ll have to be realistic and say: There is no hope, not even when I was told that a miracle might happen to change this one thing… because “might” is not definite, and I’m tired of waiting for chance to make things happen (or not happen). In that case, even if it is so important to me, I’ll have to let go and move on. And I’ll keep telling myself that there are more chances in the future, and I bet there is.
I’ll miss it, and I’ll wish that I won’t spend as much time reminiscing over it than coming up with this decision. But I had to do it… sigh. That said, thanks for the past two months of awesomeness, even if I had to stay up all night to spend time with you.
Goodbye physics course… I’ll learn more physics later on in life when I don’t have to worry about figuring out how to obtain high marks from unfair evaluations :'(
Published: October 30, 2011